I ate :(

Yes I was too hungry my stomach was making noises but today was much better than yesterday!!
I had 100 calories of popcorn
a banana a tsp of peanut butter and half a cup of milk
I guess that brings my calorie consumption to 110 calories which is not bad at all :D ..
Tomorrow I'm going out so I'm just going to try and find light things and not have a specific theme for my diet..cuz it looks like t he fruit theme didnt work out very well lol..oh well I didnt eat all that much now did I !! and yaay i walked for an hour :D now im going to go do my situps and crunches .. ciao
Current weight: 75 Next Goal: 73 by 13th january

Fruit Day 1

I'm still on my fruit diet. Today I was fasting so I didn't eat anything the whole day except around dusk I had 2 dates which is about 100 calories each. and then I drank a cup of tea which is a definite no no because it's full of evaporated milk and sugar but I was out with people and in our culture if your offered something it's offensive if you say no so that was another 100 calories right there. we're up to 300. and then I was offered a cocktail juice which was also fruit soo that wasn't exactly cheating. but I guess that was a whooping 500 calories because of all the full fat milk and sugar they use :S .. we're up to 800.. I just had a banana that's another 100 .. 800 total I hope I don't eat more today :( .. My friends wedding is in less than a week and I have a dress to fit in to.
I still didn't work out today but I'm planning on it.. take care for now :)
Current weight: 75 Next Goal: 73 by 13th january :)

Today I love fruits

I forgot to mention everyday I have to have at least an hour walk
DO a full body stretch
Do about 50 stomach crunches.
50 sit ups
and that's just for starters
Every cheat in the diet has grave consequences, so honey be careful. :)
Can't wait to go to sleep and get up so I can start by brand new diet!!!
Still:
Current weight: 75 Next Goal: 73 by 13th january :)
good night I'm goingt to sleep even thoug it is a little after 5 am lol . take cake :)

I have a Problem

Its the 6th of January. that's 6 days since I told myself for the millionth time that I won't eat more than I need... that I won't binge. But did that work? of course not. Because yes sadly I am another fat girl that is struggling and probably always will be struggling with her weight. I have been dieting since for as long as I can remember but nothing seems to work. I am doing much better than I was though because there was a point in time when i weighed almost 100 KGS!! I lost about 30 of that and have gained back about 5-6. my height is 161 cms and I should weight about 60-65 Kilos but noooo I have to weight a pesky 10-15 more than that :@
Am I going to stay a fat girl for ever? I really hope not.
I have tried every single diet known to man. Atkins, Southbeach, JUDDD ummm the normal eat less diet everything.. Currently I am at a point where I can't stick to much so sadly I have been attempting to make myself vomit and I am successful most of the time. I feel guilty everytime I eat something and I instantly wish that I hadn't eaten what I just had.
For instance for the past few days I've been trying to eat one meal a day and its been working until today when one meal around 7pm was getting me hungry by 2am. So, I went to the kitchen and grabbed everything in sight!! this is what i ate:
- a banana with 1 tbs peannut butter
- a glass of full fat milk
-1 cup potatoe chips
-2 cups popcord
-a pita bread
-some fried potato dish
-some cherry cobler (the butter in that dish in unbeleivable)
-2 pieces chocolate cake
-a cinnamon roll
and that is all in one go!! I cannot beleive this it sounds even worse after I wrote them all down.
Of course, after that I went to the bathroom and tried to throw it all up but it didn't work for me this time. All I got was an aching side, red eyes and a sore throat.
I need to change I need to control myself and what I eat. I am thank God a succesful, beatiful and smart girl. I am 21 years old and have hopefully a lot of things going for me and I'm not going to have my obsession with losing weight brng me down. I'm going to lose weight and lose it right!!
Today is the end of an ERA!! I CAN DO THIS.. please whoever reads my blog comment and raise my spirits.
I am going to continue trying out new diets and keep changing them frequently so I don't get bored. But I will lose weight this time and without throwing my food up.
I am going to take my diet day by day and change it when I please. This diet has no set rules but it does have a set goal to lose 10 kilos by the end of march I really hope I can do it.
بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم
Tomorrow still the 6th of january lol I am going to try the fruit diet eat nothing but fruit the whole day and drink 8 glasses of water. I really hope this works
Current weight: 75 KGS Next goal: 73 Kgs by the 13th of January.